Three years ago today, we lost our baby boy, my everything, my heart and soul, my strength, my Brendon, to brain cancer. The morning of September 10, 2008, I held him in my arms. As he took his last breath he was gently taken from me into the Lord's arms, and wisked off to the heavens above. While I know he is watching over us, it never makes the days, holidays, birthdays, or anniversaries any easier.

It is a reminder instead that someone so perfect, so vibrant, so loving, so gentle, and so wonderful, was taken from us way too early. It is a reminder of how much I hate this horrid disease, and a reminder that we must not give up fighting this monster. It is a reminder that I no longer can hug, laugh, cry, hold, kiss, or snuggle, with my baby boy. It is a constant reminder that I have to wait many more years to see him again. As I lay here numb in my bed...not wanting to get up, not wanting to face the day, watch the date be stamped across every receipt, pop up on my phone, or be displayed on a calendar...I think about how much September 10th means to me. Much like those who will be mourning their loss tomorrow on September 11th, I too am mourning my loss today. One day before September 11th...mine is September 10th (my whole family feels the same way, my Mom says it all the time). My whole life changed on September 10th, my world fell apart, and my heart was shredded to pieces that day. I will never forget September 10th, and I will never forget my baby boy. I will never forget his smile, his laugh, his cry, his touch, his smell, his love. I will never forget the blessing I had to be his mom, and I will never forget that he is still watching over us every day. I love you more than words can express Bren! I miss you more than I can spread my arms to show you, and as the book says, "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as you're living". And while the book says "living", my version is here with me; physically, spiritually, mentally, "my baby you'll be". Sending hugs, love, tears, and laughter to heaven today, baby boy.

We love you,

Mommy (aka your girl , Daddy, Mia and Baby Asher.