Three years ago today, we lost our baby boy, my everything, my heart and soul, my strength, my Brendon, to brain cancer. The morning of September 10, 2008, I held him in my arms. As he took his last breath he was gently taken from me into the Lord's arms, and wisked off to the heavens above. While I know he is watching over us, it never makes the days, holidays, birthdays, or anniversaries any easier.
It is a reminder instead that someone so perfect, so vibrant, so loving, so gentle, and so wonderful, was taken from us way too early. It is a reminder of how much I hate this horrid disease, and a reminder that we must not give up fighting this monster. It is a reminder that I no longer can hug, laugh, cry, hold, kiss, or snuggle, with my baby boy. It is a constant reminder that I have to wait many more years to see him again. As I lay here numb in my bed...not wanting to get up, not wanting to face the day, watch the date be stamped across every receipt, pop up on my phone, or be displayed on a calendar...I think about how much September 10th means to me. Much like those who will be mourning their loss tomorrow on September 11th, I too am mourning my loss today. One day before September 11th...mine is September 10th (my whole family feels the same way, my Mom says it all the time). My whole life changed on September 10th, my world fell apart, and my heart was shredded to pieces that day. I will never forget September 10th, and I will never forget my baby boy. I will never forget his smile, his laugh, his cry, his touch, his smell, his love. I will never forget the blessing I had to be his mom, and I will never forget that he is still watching over us every day. I love you more than words can express Bren! I miss you more than I can spread my arms to show you, and as the book says, "I'll love you forever, I'll like you for always, as long as you're living". And while the book says "living", my version is here with me; physically, spiritually, mentally, "my baby you'll be". Sending hugs, love, tears, and laughter to heaven today, baby boy.
We love you,
Mommy (aka your girl
, Daddy, Mia and Baby Asher.
Dear Family and Friends,
We recently accepted the challenge of participating in the Dallas-Ft. Worth Brain Tumor Walk to benefit the National Brain Tumor Society. This will be our second year participating in this event!
We are asking you to help, by supporting our fundraising efforts with a donation to the Dallas-Ft. Worth Brain Tumor Walk. Your tax-deductible gift will make a difference in the lives of brain tumor patients. It is faster and easier than ever to support this great cause - you can make your donation online by simply clicking on the link at the bottom of this message.
Any amount, great or small, helps in the fight. We greatly appreciate your support and will keep you posted on our progress.
We are participating in honor and memory of Brendon, so we have chosen the name "Forever Five" to represent our team.
Thank you always for your support,
Tony and Alison (Coates) Clement
Click here to support the "Forever Five" team with your tax-deductible donation. Thank you!
Thursday, September 10 2009
Today marks the one year anniversary since our precious baby boy earned his angel wings and went to Heaven. I know that he is smiling down on us today and each and everyday. I laid on Brendons bed this morning and it brought me back to exactly a year ago in the morning where I held him in my arms lifeless. The funeral home gave me lots of time but then had to come in and carry him away. How gentle she was as I passed Brendon to her. She wrapped him in a white sheet ...<< MORE >>
Imagine one day waking up and realizing that your child’s life and your life will change forever. I don’t know that I have still come to terms with that reality, but sadly enough that is the reality when your child has been diagnosed with cancer.
August 25th 2006 was that horrible day for me, it was the day that my baby boy, Brendon Scott Coates age 3, was diagnosed with a cancerous brain tumor named Ependymoma, which only account for 5-10 percent of pediatric brain tumors. Later we would find out that the ependymoma was metastatic throughout his spine which ...<< MORE >>